I saw the photo of the Gudi yesterday. Just the picture of the Gudi was enough to trigger a rush of maternal instincts. I wanted to take her in my arms and hold on. I wanted to feel her innocence pressed against my chest.
and then it struck me..
I am blessed with a wonderful partner in the form of Vinod. One who wants to walk the spiritual path together with me and puts his Sadhana as his priority over anything else.
Then Sadhguru. I didnt go looking for him, atleast consciously. But he found me. and what a journey it has been since. I found my Guru in him.. and he gave me yet another Guru, the Dhyanalinga.
Then I saw a mother, a Goddess coming alive. Vinod & I are getting married in the Devi’s presence in June. She overwhelms us with her motherly love, with her ferocity and her radiance. I cant help crying out ‘Amma..’ when I am with her.. either physically or otherwise.
Now I am getting a child? The Gudi’s innocence wrenches my heart. Just one look at her and I can already feel a kicking and demanding child in my arms, demanding all my love and attention.
What sweetness is this.. what have I done to deserve this?
and why do these relationships feel more real than the other ‘real’ ones I have? Its baffling yet there is no fear.
I will continue to dance to the tune..
I am 